dS flashfic: "Mail" (PG)

[hsavinien]

Title: Mail
Author: H. Savinien
Fandom: due South
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Atlantis/Alliance, the Pauls, and Callum.
Wordcount: 300
A.N.: Written for ds_snippets  Tag Amnesty Event #4, prompt: " I want to say I'm sorry for stuff I haven't done yet."  Set sometime in season 3/4.

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Dear Mom,

So how's Arizona?  What's Dad rebuilding now?  Are you guys settling in okay?  I got your letter.  The place looks nice from the pictures, but I don't know how you convinced Dad to do the retirement community thing.  Did you get a good deal for the camper?

Work is going good, you know, for being an environment where I have to deal with crazy people every day and confront wild animals and they're the ones on my side.  You remember my partner Fraser, right?  He's good. He's

I'm kinda  Mom, you remember when you made me go have a talk with Father Jozef in the ninth grade because you were worried about me?  I've been thinking about that a lot recently and mostly I've been thinking that Father Jozef meant well, but I think he was wrong.  I loved Stella and it was amazing.  We grew apart, though. I keep thinking about the early days of loving Stella, how the best thing in the world was just being in the same place as her, even if we didn't talk or anything.  We could have sat looking at the skyline and holding hands and it would have been perfect.  Then I grew up a little more and I wanted to marry her and be with her forever, and everything.  I've been thinking that there's a guy that I want that with.  The holding the hands and the sitting and the forever and everything, and it's the exact same feeling, except better, because we're both going the same direction.

I don't know how you're going to feel about this.  Jeez, I want to say I’m sorry for stuff I haven’t done yet.  But I think it's the right thing.  I love you, Ma. I hope you understand.

Love,
Stanley Raymond

Comments

[luzula]

Oh, Ray. I like the crossed-out bits, where he's hesitating and doesn't know what to say.

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It's a hard letter to write.

[lil-1337.livejournal.com]

That was lovely. You captured Ray's uncertainty and determination so well.

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thank you, I'm glad it worked.

[hazelwho.livejournal.com]

Oh, Ray! *hugs him* I love the crossed out bits, and I love how Ray uses the story of Father Jozef to reference a whole TON of unspoken things that must have passed between Ray and his Ma.

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

*nods* Unspoken history is important.

[keerawa.livejournal.com]

Awwww, Ray. I love the things he's crossed out, and him signing it Stanley Raymond.

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thanks. The signature is a compromise between the way he sees himself and the way his mom sees him.

[thursdaynext-27.livejournal.com]

You've captured his nervousness and hesitation so well, from the crossouts to where it's starting to babble.

Work is going good, you know, for being an environment where I have to deal with crazy people every day and confront wild animals and they're the ones on my side.

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thanks. My Ray tends to babble...

[exbex.livejournal.com]

Oh, I love the bittersweetness.

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thank you kindly.

[mergatrude.livejournal.com]

This was lovely! ♥

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much. ^_^

[malnpudl.livejournal.com]

Oh, Ray! *heart!tug*

I liked this very much.

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thank you kindly.

[ride-4ever.livejournal.com]

Oh, Ray!

I can really hear him in this! And the signature!

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Yep, the signature's a compromise between the way he thinks of himself and the way his mum does.

[morelindo.livejournal.com]

That was such a Ray letter all over, but you really got me in the heart with "Stanley Raymond".

[hsavinien.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm glad it worked for you.